All Glories to Sri Sri Guru and Gauranga.
To all Those blessed souls.
Dear Devotees,
Dandvat Pranam to you all.
I beg for pardon to you all to speak out some secret of my bhajan life. Gaudiya Gosthipati Sri Srila Bhakti Siddhanta Sarasvati Goswami Thakur Prabhupada Jagad Guru wanted to sing the glories of Guru- Gauranga- Gandarvika- Giridhari Lal upto to the last breath of his life, same way I too want to leave my body.
Hari katha is my life and soul. By the mercy of Srila Prabhupada and Gaudiya Guruvarga, I always feel inspiration to speak Hari- Katha tirelessly. If ” Trinadapi Sunich” bhava is not there in me- then it is quite impossible for me to do Hari- Kirtan. “Trinadapi Sunich”- does not mean false humbleness ( or Kapat bhava). My ‘Hari-Katha’ is not an instrument to collect Labha- Puja- Prathistha. Even if any smell of Labha-Puja-Prathistha is there in me, then Aprakrita Hari- Katha is not at all possible for me. Now you understand the actual meaning of ” Trinadapi Sunich” bhava as was shown by Sri Chaitanya Mahaprabhu. I cannot have any enemity with anybody because I’m a penniless baba, so naturally I’m always full of joy and happiness, also full of vigrous energy.
By my tireless effort and also by all of your blessings I’m always successful in my mission. But still somebody can go against me it is quite natural, because everybody cannot digest absolute truth. Wise and honest people can never go against me. Good behaviour or bad behaviour has nothing to do with “Trinadapi Sunich” bhava- If not related to “Akinchana Suddha Bhakti”, also my apparent strict behaviour can give excellent success (result), if related to “Akinchana Suddha Bhakti”. Foolish people cannot understand these vital points.
I like positive critisism, because this can give me the scope to rectify myself, also can give me rigidity. But negative critisism coming out of envious attitude, which can only destroy our Samprodayik Vaibhav. If I am unable to do anything good to others, then atleast I should not do any harm. This teaching I received from my parents in my Childhood. If I’m trying my best to do something concrete for the whole sampradaya as a whole, without any self interest, then who can go against me except a demon! That is a main question. If at all somebody can point out that I’m going against Srila Prabhupada or Srila Bhaktivinod Thakur, then and only then somebody can have the right to go against me, otherwise not. Your wrong judgement can try to prove that Srila Vrindavan Das Thakur Mahasaya is devoid of “Trinadapi Sunich” bhava because of his apparent strictness, but actually not that, just the opposite Srila Prabhupada told. He’s full of overflowing mercy and Trinadapi Sunich bhava. If common people grow wrong conception about Sri Chaitanya Lila Vyasadeva(Sri Vrindavan Das Thakur) then what we can do? Srila Gurudeva told me that- ” I like to give you such secret property, which can never be stolen by any thief, or can never be taken away by any robber. Let them run behind Labha-Puja-Prathistha, but you must avoid those apparent opulences of maya- which can ultimately put you into the ocean of illusion and misery”.
Srila Prabhupada use to say that- ” Excessive Collection of money power is not at all our target, because then we can grow enough false ego to ignore and insult Guru- Vaishnava”. Opulence can make us Ravan( or Owl).
If you have no objection against my strict Siddhanta Vichar, then and only then I can again start speaking pure Hari- Katha, otherwise not. I can learn all Superfine Siddhanta Vichar from Srila Sacchidanand Bhaktivinod Thakur and Srila Prabhupada Bhakti Siddhanta Sarasvati Thakur. I can learn full and final detachment from Srila Paramhamsa Acharya Varya Gaurakishor Das Babaji Maharaj. I can learn fearlessness from Srila Acharya Kesari Keshav Goswami Maharaj. I can learn special purity from Srila Paramhamsa Gurudeva Bhakti Pramod Puri Goswami Maharaj. I can learn extreme patiency and tolerance from Srila Bhakti Dayita Madhava Goswami Maharaj. I can learn Guru nistha from Srila Bhakti Rakshak Sridhar Dev Goswami Maharaj- from whom I learn that to fire at a robber who is going to abduct Sri Sri Radha Madhav Jiu or going to abduct Gaudiya Siddhanta Vani Vaibhava is called Bhakti. I can learn Naam nistha from Srila Niskinchan Krishna Das Babaji Maharaj, then how it is possible for me to learn falsity or duplicity from those traitors who are always habituated to enjoy false honour and Prathistha? Even they can sell Aprakrita Gaudiya Vani Vaibhava in lue(in exchange) of personal Labha-Puja-Prathistha. Degradation of humanity is highly regretted. All countless dirty things are happening all around our Bhajan field, but nobody can see, because they are blind like Owl, but their full attention is there on me just like a vulture. They are always trying to find fault with me to attack me. Srila Prabhupada and Guru Varga always giving me full protection.
My whole devotinal life is dedicated to Gaur Vani Seva, no doubt in it. Those who are against my Pure Vani Seva effort, I’m sure that they will get severe punishment by Sri Baladeva Nityananda “Pasanda Dalan Avatar”, but I pray that they can be excused. To look negative thing positive way is called Vaikuntha Darshan.
” ‘Me’ and ‘Mine’ “- This is the slogan of their life with which they like to climb the heaven of foolish. A blind can never be guided by another blind. Impossible. “Trinadapi Bhava” is not a matter of exhibition. When you allow me to sit in Vyasa Asana to do the duty of a Sad- Guru to speak Hari-Katha and at the same time if you order me to speak some tasteful katha for your sense gratification, then I cannot tolerate anymore. If you dislike your Gurudeva then immediately you can reject( dismiss) Gurudeva. This is your very cheap Guru Darshan with which you like to do Hari- Bhajan. What can I do for you? Srila Prabhupada use to say that-” Even if the whole world going against me still I’m not going to stop speaking about that absolute truth”.
Thanks a Lot
Truly yours in the Service of Guru- Gauranga and Go Mata.
Your Penniless Baba,
Shyam Das.