Gurudev is so merciful, even though we are full of defects, but still Gurudev is ready to give us shelter. Diksa doesn’t mean we can take mantra and leave Gurudeva.
That’s the reason for why Srila Prabhupada used to say, that—“A life without submission unto the Lotusfeet of SadGuru-Vaishnava is a animalistic (a beastly ) life”.
Even this can prove to be more dangerous than a animal. A dog if trained properly can show submissive to his master. Gurumaharaja gave the example of his Sannyas-danda, He told that “Here look at this Sannyas-danda, if I move it, it can move, if I keep it for one year in the same place and same position, it cannot move without my desire. In Srimad Bhagavatam it is written “vikrito pashor yatha”. This means that if i go to the market and buy one animal and if i put some chains on it and from then onwards that animal is bound to stay under my control. If I am going to provide nice accommodation, food etc., or if I am not going to arrange anything for the animal, then the animal cannot go against me. Similarly an inclined disciple should follow his Sad-Guru in toto. Full Inclination means, what Gurudeva says is final, not that I can again start thinking about good and bad. Why we speak “om-ajana timirandasya…….” there is deep darkness in my heart, please Gurudeva give me some light of knowledge, I myself cannot take decision what to do and what not to do. One should have no doubt or suspicion in the words of Gurudeva.
Shyam das Baba